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  “That is why you are so perfect for me Elise.” He slowed his movements and gripped my thighs forcing them further apart. “You know exactly what I want from you.”

  He leaned in between my thighs and lifted one hand to my neck; he gripped firmly and tilted my head to the side before pressing his mouth over mine. The warmth of his lips on mine made me more aware of my inhibitions melting away and I succumbed to his kiss. He nudged the tip of his tongue into my mouth and I groaned loudly, his other hand found the heat between my legs and he pressed against the fabric of my jeans, putting the exact amount of pressure on my clit and causing me to flinch against him. He released my mouth and paused still in front of me. Loosening his grip on my neck he spoke quietly.

  “I want to strip you bare inside and out. I want to take every inch of your body as mine. I want to hear you screaming my name as I push myself deep into your body, your mind and your soul.” He blinked and stared into my eyes, cupping my chin in his hand. “But as much as it is killing me to wait, first we need to talk.”

  He sat back on his haunches and I felt a cold draught whipping around my skin, losing his warmth was akin to being totally alone and I didn’t like it. I didn’t want him to ever let go of me and to keep him near I would agree to anything.

  “Words are pointless when you stare at me like that.” I said quietly trying to avoid his eyes.

  “That may be so Elise, but we need to put some ground rules in place if we are to be together.” He brushed his lips against mine. “It won’t always be easy to be with me.” He told me.

  “I don’t care.” I admitted. “I’m yours, and I am not interested in easy.” I leaned towards him and raised my hand to touch his cheek. He grabbed my wrist and held it just away from his face. He squeezed, his fingers gripping and twisting my skin. I was a little shocked and my eyes filled with tears at the sudden onslaught of pain.

  “I will hurt you.” He spoke through gritted teeth.

  “I want you to.” I relaxed my muscles and let my wrist fall limp in his iron like grip.

  “I will ruin you for any other man.” His eyes were dark, so dark I could see my own reflection in them.

  “I don’t want any other man. It’s just you Dominic. You ignite a fire inside of me I didn’t even know existed.” I gulped swallowing the lump in my throat and allowed a single tear to escape on to my cheek. “I only want you, and that means that I want all of the hurt and pain you wish to inflict on my body.” I bowed my head and looked away to the floor. “But my mind is my own. I go into this with all of my faculties in place. I want this...I want you!”

  Keeping his grip on my wrist he lifted my chin with his other hand and stared into my eyes.

  “You don’t know what you are saying.” His mouth hovered over mine and I closed my eyes.

  “I know exactly what I’m saying.” I whispered.

  In an instant he claimed me. Our mouths crashed together, our tongues locked, and I was tugged from my seat and onto his lap. Neither of us broke the kiss, my hands, now free, moved to his hair and I ran them into his hair, entwining it and giving it a little tug. He stood without any effort and with me in his arms moved through the cabin, kicking open the door at the end of the room. He threw me down onto the bed in the centre of the small room, and as I landed he grabbed my t shirt with both hands and yanked it over my head. He reached around and unclipped my bra expertly, releasing my breasts, and groaned as my nipples peaked with the rush of cool air. He unbuttoned my jeans and tugged them off my hips, leaving them bunched around my knees. He scooped me up with one arm and flipped me over, planting my feet on the floor and stretching my arms out in front of me on the bed. He leaned into my back and nipped at the skin on my shoulders with his teeth.

  “Are you certain that you want to hand yourself over to me Elise?” He trailed his tongue down my spine and over the soft flesh of my arse.

  “Yes. Yes. I have never been more certain of anything.” I arched my back, lifting my bottom and offering myself to him. “I’m yours and only yours.”

  I yelped as he sank his teeth into my cheek, bringing the tears to my eyes once more. He lapped at the wound before lifting himself up right, pressing his erection into me. He fumbled with his belt and loosened his trousers, letting his cock spring free, it nudged into my now burning flesh as he did so, and I tried to back up to him, grinding myself against his thighs.

  “Ah ah ah.” He stopped me from rocking into him by shifting back and putting a little distance between us as he smoothed his hand over his length. I moaned in disappointment.

  “Please...” I wanted him inside of me. I needed to confirm that I was his; I had shifted slightly to the side when he first struck. Hard, piercing pain took my breath away as the edge of his belt caught the small of my back. I tried to speak but couldn’t catch my breath. The warm trickle on my back told me that he had broken the skin and I struggled with the knowledge that he could make me bleed and enjoy it.

  “Don’t...” I finally found my voice and cried out, letting the tears flow fully as the pain took over ever other sense I possessed. He had clearly been gentle with me in the past and I wasn’t entirely sure I could cope with this pain.

  “Stay still Elise.” His voice was calm and controlling, and I instantly stopped writhing. I bit my tongue hard to control the tears, to stop myself from crying out. “Would it help if you had something to bite down on?” He asked. It was all I could do to nod. He moved across the room and within seconds was back and placed a rolled up silk handkerchief in my mouth. I clamped down on it and closed my eyes as he moved behind me once more.

  “This time, stay still.” He ordered.

  I was ready for him this time and I flinched only slightly as the rigid leather tore into my flesh once more. I couldn’t even think about the force behind his swing for it to slice into me the way it was, and though it was the most excruciating pain I had ever experienced, by the time the third strike hit, I didn’t let myself react, I was feeling not the pain, or the moist warmth of my own blood on my skin, but the heat deep within, and the throbbing between my legs. I arched lower and raised my cheeks higher almost willing him to give me more. I heard him moan behind me, and felt him nudge against me as I bucked against him.

  “I told you I would hurt you.” He said as he pushed himself against me, slowly opening me up ready to take him. “I told you I would ruin you.” He nudged into me slowly, teasing me as he rubbed my skin, smearing the drops of blood across my cheeks. “Do you still want me?” He ceased his movement, his swollen head buried in my folds, my body aching for his length.

  “Yes!” I cried out. “Yes...I want all of you.” I panted as I rocked, trying with all my might to force him into me. He suddenly thrust forward, pushing me down on to the bedding, holding me down with one hand pressed firmly against the back of my neck. I didn’t move. I was afraid that if I did he might snap my neck in two.

  “Then all of me is what you shall have.” He whispered into my ear before lifting his head and ramming himself all the way into me. Our bodies crushed together, he paused slightly before rearing up and driving into me again. Over and over he smashed into me, my flesh raw as it clamped around him, my neck tender where he gripped it and my backside throbbed where he had struck me. But all I felt was pleasure.

  A pleasure that fulfilled me completely.

  A pleasure that took over my entire being and numbed me from the pain.

  Chapter 19

  He relaxed back onto his heels and pulled me into his arms. We sat there, our breathing laboured and our skin glossy with perspiration, he with his arms tight around my middle, me with my head resting on his shoulder. Neither of us wanted to be the one to move or to break free from the other. Neither of us wanted to prompt the discussion we were about to have. But I was the first to speak.

  “Isn’t it just as simple as we want to be together?”

  He sighed softly and brushed his lips against my shoulder, inhaling the scent of my hair before responding. />
  “No Elise. It isn’t as simple as that.” He loosened his grip and turned me around to face him. Still naked, I wrapped my legs around his waist and took both of his hands in mine. I stared deeply into his eyes. There was a flicker of something there. Whoever said that the eyes were the window to your soul had clearly never met this man. His eyes gave no clue whatsoever to what was going through his mind. “We need to set down some ground rules.”

  “It really doesn’t matter what the rules are Dominic. I agree to them all. I will agree to anything as long as you tell me that this won’t end.” I kissed his chest, little butterfly flutters over his skin. I watched as his nipples tightened and his cock grew hard before my eyes. He moved his hands to my wrists and grabbed them both hard.

  “You need to stop.” He shifted backwards and tried to put some distance between us. “I’m not touching you again until we are both clear on where we stand.”

  I pouted.

  “Okay.” I let myself shift from his knees and sat on the floor, my back leaning against the end of the bed. I pulled my knees up to my chest and enveloped my arms around them. I was on the defensive and I realised that, but I couldn’t help myself. I had no protection from him whatsoever, and there were clearly things to discuss that I wasn’t going to like.

  He stood and pulled on his trousers, coaxing his erection into them and zipping them up. I frowned as he covered himself but accepted his shirt when he handed it to me. I slipped into it, it barely covered me but at least I had regained some modesty.

  He sat on the edge of the bed behind me, one leg either side of my body, and he stroked my hair as he spoke.

  “Elise. This is not going to be an easy ride for you.” He paused. “Nor me, actually. I have never sought a relationship with anyone before.”

  I smiled.

  “So I’m a first?” I asked, feeling a little pleased with myself.

  He didn’t reply but I knew he was smiling.

  “I’m not sure how this will work if I’m honest.” He said. “You have just bought a new home.” His fingers stopped stroking my hair and he rested his hand on my neck gently. “I assume you are going to want to live there?”

  “Well of course I want to live there.” I snapped. “What a silly question.” I was indignant. “Where do you expect me to live?”

  He was silent and still for a moment.

  “I thought I might like you to be with me...” His whole body heaved as he sighed again. “I quite like the idea of having you at my beck and call.”

  I stayed quiet even though my heart was practically pounding out of my chest. He actually wanted me to move in with him. Didn’t he realise that I would give up everything and move in with him in an instant.

  “Of course, it has to be right for you too.” He gave a little cough and cleared his throat. He sounded so unsure of himself.

  “What if I moved my stuff into the flat, but I stay with you? Ellie can use my place when she is home in the holidays, and should things not work out between us I will always have somewhere to go.” I was waffling. I desperately wanted to throw myself at him but I tried to stay calm.

  “Hmmmm.” He pondered my suggestion. He started kneading the back of my neck as he thought. “I think that’s a perfect idea.” He gripped tight causing my breath to hitch in my throat. “Though if you think you will ever escape me once I take you as mine, then you are mistaken.”

  I gulped and turned myself round to face him.

  “I have no intention of ever trying to escape from you. I’m merely offering you a get out clause should you need it.” I secretly hoped that he would never need a get out clause, but I felt better having offered it to him.

  “There may be times when you want to escape Elise. You have no idea how depraved I can be.” He stroked my cheek with his thumb as he spoke. “I will hurt you so much that you will scream and cry and beg for me to stop.” He smoothed his thumb over my lip. “I will make you climax so hard and so often that you will beg for mercy.” He opened my lips with his thumb and dipped it into the wetness of my mouth. I nipped at it with my teeth and let out a soft guttural groan from the pit of my stomach. “I will control every move and every decision you make. I will consume every thought and feeling you have from the second you wake up until you collapse into sleep exhausted every night. I will take over your entire being, body, mind and soul. You will be mine... Only mine and never ever free. Do you understand Elise?”

  I nodded.

  “You will register yourself to me as a collared submissive and you will wear your collar when we are alone at all times. This is not up for discussion.”

  I nodded again.

  “You will by no means be a prisoner. You will have the freedom to come and go as you please. But you will not work. You will not sleep anywhere else other than with me, unless you have my permission and you will not let any other man ever lay a finger on you.” He leaned forward and kissed my lips softly. “Are you still happy to go through with this?” He murmured before covering my mouth with his.

  “I...Yes.” I closed my eyes and melted into his kiss. It was soft and sensual, warm and comforting...but I knew that it was the calm before the storm. I knew that no matter what happened now I was setting myself up for a life different to anything I had ever known or even imagined before.

  “I’m happy to submit to you wholly.” I told him.

  “Then it’s settled.” He stood in front of me whilst I stayed on my knees. I looked up at him expectantly, a fire igniting deep inside of me. I couldn’t let him walk away from me at this moment. I needed to show him just how much I wanted him. He smoothed his hand over my hair and smiled. “You shouldn’t look at me that way. We have things to do.” He cupped my chin in his hand. I reached up and unfastened his trousers, letting them fall off his hips and pool at his ankles. As I moved forward and placed a chaste kiss on the tip of his erection he gripped my chin tight forcing my jaw open. I relaxed my tongue and opened my throat as he slid himself inside my mouth pushing all the way back so that his neatly trimmed hair grazed my lips. I felt my gag reflex kick in and the muscles in my throat begin to contract, but as if he recognised the signs he pulled out slowly again, groaning as he did so. I rested my hands against his thighs and lapped at him greedily, I wanted him, all of him and I took him into my mouth again as he drove his groin forwards. He kept a steady pace, his hand moving from my chin to the back of my head. He wrapped my hair around his hand and my eyes watered as he thrust in and out, keeping a tight grip on my hair. I swirled my tongue around him as he thrust and although I let him control the pace, I was in control of the pressure. I alternated between sucking him firmly and then softly lapping at him, I felt him tense inside my mouth as his climax came and his load hit the roof of my mouth. He slowed as he throbbed inside of me, his legs shaking as he attempted to regain control.

  I released him and he dropped to his knees. He touched my cheek tenderly and kissed the tip of my nose.

  “I’m going to like having you around.” He said. “Now... Come on. We have a busy day ahead of us.”

  Chapter 20

  I rolled over onto my side as the sun started to perforate the gaps in the blinds. I lifted myself up onto my elbow and watched him sleep beside me. I would never tire of this view. It had been six months since the day we had our discussion, and my life had been a bit of a whirlwind ever since.

  There was always a dinner or a ball to attend, and I was always on Dominic’s arm. He introduced me as his partner and treated me like a lady in public, but once the doors were closed and my collar was fastened around my neck, he turned feral, animalistic and raw. We had fallen into a routine comfortably and we seemed to have it all. It was certainly a very different life to the one I had been living before.

  I winced as I sat up, the bruises and welts from last night were a little tender this morning. I turned swinging my legs out of bed and reaching for my robe.

  “Where do you think you are going?” Dominic spoke from behind me, his vo
ice husky in that ‘just woke up’ state.

  I smiled and slipped the robe over my arms.

  “To make my master some coffee.” I turned and poked my tongue out at him cheekily, and was sure to move quickly. Not quick enough though as in a flash he had my wrist locked in his grip. He sat and leaned in to me, nuzzling into my shoulder and trailing his tongue along the marks on my neck left by the soft white leather of my collar. It had been a gift from him on the day I moved in here and I adored it. I felt my nipples pebble under the robe in reaction to his closeness and he took advantage of the effect he was having on me by reaching round and fondling my bottom. He slid his hand up beneath the fabric of my robe and expertly slipped his thumb into me, I groaned and clenched around him as he whispered into my ear...

  “Did I give you permission to leave?”

  I caught my breath as he twisted his thumb before sliding it back out.

  “No...You didn’t.” I admitted.

  He sat up and watched me intently as he lifted his thumb to his mouth and sucked it clean, making a real show of how aroused I was.

  “No...I didn’t.” He raised his eyebrow. “However...coffee sounds wonderful, please proceed.” He laughed at me as I rolled my eyes at him.

  “You are a terrible tease.” I told him.

  “I aim to please.” He winked at me and grinned.

  I laughed as I stood and walked away from him. I was sure to sashay my hips as I left the room and laughed as he groaned and pulled the covers over his head.

  I switched on the coffee machine and stood by the wall length window as it gurgled into life. The view was perfect, here I could see the whole city below me, the hustle and bustle of daily life as everyone began their busy days. I would often sit here with my kindle and the sun streaming through the glass while Dominic worked at the table. He had a desk in his office but had barely used it of late, in fact the last time he was in the office it wasn’t work on his mind. I smiled to myself as the memories of him bending me over his desk and fucking me whilst on a conference call came back to me. How anybody hadn’t noticed was beyond me. I turned away from the view as the coffee finished dripping into the glass jug and I grabbed two mugs and filled them to the brim, before carrying them back through to the bedroom.